Changes

You know how sometimes you watch a movie
and you get all sucked up into their reality.
And when it ends,
you switch off the player and you're back.
Back where you started.
On the sofa.
With a cigarette in your hand.
A half finished cup of coffee on the table
And the fan.
The fan just blowing away into nothiness.

Days like these come requently for me.
I'm not like other people.
Always busy.
Always rushing around with the world on their sleeves.
I live by day to day.
Knowing how much i have in my bank.
Knowing that there's limited money to spend.

And then I wonder,
What happened to me?
What happened to this girl.

I had dreams.
Now.
The dreams become regrets.

When i was younger. Or more like younger, I used to dream about how i would be someone everyone remembered.
I would be this someone everyone would call if there was a party. Some kind of gathering.
People would know me
They'll think I'm the most interesting person they would want to be with.

And then I'll dream somemore.
I would become famous.
Beautiful and famous.
My face would be featured in magazines.
People would talk about me. My talent. My beauty.

I chased this dream for sometime.
And i lived for the future.

Today.
I'm tired.
Too tired to finish what I started.
Becus
In the middle of chasing these dreams
I forgot why I was chasing them.
I can't remember which dream is what i wanted
And which dream was just a dream

Tone_Deaf to Change

Tone_deaf should be shot dead. I'm tired of updating so many blogs. Espeacially one that needs constant care. Maybe i'll leave it on for a while. Or maybe I'll change it a little.

We'll see